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2014-12-08 08:58 pm
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more whining, like serious whining

i got good grades and understood stuff really well all through high school and below, so now that im in college, and im finally encountering stuff that i dont just 'get' its such a shock. it shouldnt be, considering this is my second year, but still. i never know if im studying correctly, but im too damn stubborn to just ask for help, and id feel stupid not being able to understand things. i mean, logically i know that theres nothing wrong with needing assistance, just like i know that i should be able to do public speaking, but i dont know. i cant really put it into words.

But, if i can get at least an 83 on the chemistry final, ill get a b in the class, and then ill be more competitive for cinical lab science (which i really love), so theres that

this has literally been like a paragraph or two of me complaining
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2014-12-02 06:45 pm
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whining about stuff

you know what happens when you marathon johnny cash music and the terrible DRAMAtical murder anime?

dumb plot garbage about dumb garbage charaters thats what.

I swear i have the attention of a gnat about fandoms right now, and like way too many in-progress fics and like no motovation to actually write them. Like i really want to read these things but like to my exact specifications and weird necessities. uggghh.

as an aside i have at least three in-progress fics all titled "Sins of the Father"

this is entirely because i have no creativity left. organic chemistry is hard and i am small and sad. Its times like these when i regret changing my major in the middle of the school year and not being able to take the easier class as a result. struggle 
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2014-10-15 06:17 pm
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just a ramble

Yeah, so metal gear (actually the fandom mostly) has been more than a bit disappointing lately (the reaction to the reaction to quiet), so im moving onto fresher, more terrifying grounds.

Silent hill and resident evil.

it does help that both series have a) more games, and b) more games that i can actually play. So yeah. b/c im trash, ive got fic in mind, but nothing near completion. like everything else i write haaaaaa

Also, has anyone else noticed the weird thing in fanfic (mostly badfic) where the narrating character will just stop and describe how sexy the romantic interest is? Like

"Oh no," said the man in immediate danger of dying, "you have to stop the bomb!"

Protagonist looked at him. He was... cute, with full sexy lips, and soft, mousey hair. His skin looked smooth, and he was wearing a jacket that showed off a stretch of pale skin when he raised his arms to shriek in terror.

And then romantic interest blows up b/c the protag is too full of libido to do anything useful

Also like the words "cute" and "sexy" are used wayyyy too much. Its creepy when full grown adults are refered to as 'cute'; tbh its like infanfilising. and then they use sexy in the same sentence and its this weird psuedo pedophillic vide that creeps me out.

but yeah